I am starting to learn that this process is just like everything else in life...hurry up and wait. It seems that my days are getting longer and time is passing slower. I have an appointment next week to get my results and I feel like it's never going to get here.
I have been struggling a lot lately wondering why it is that Adam and I have to go through all this. I know that it's not that uncommon and that lots of women feel the same, but sometimes my emotions get the better of me. The hardest time is when I get on Facebook. That wonderful place where you can have 500+ friends yet still find yourself lonely. I enjoy reading up on what everyone is up to and following the lives of the people I grew up with. However, it seems that every time I'm on another one of my friends is expecting. Every Time. I am so happy for them. I am also so jealous of them. I have multiple friends who are able to have kid after kid and sometimes I want to ask them how they do it. Like maybe I'm doing something wrong. Then I have the ones who accidentally found themselves pregnant and some aren't even legal yet. I feel for the young ones especially as they haven't had a chance to spread their wings and fly yet. Don't get me wrong, I'm still happy for them--each and every one, but I can't shake the "it's not fair" feeling.
Adam has been great as he constantly tries to reassure me. I don't know if I'd be able to go through with all this if he wasn't so supportive. He truly is the best husband I could have every hoped for.
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